I haven’t done a Friday Five for a while and I’ve decided to really try and use it as a way to look back at my week so that at the end of the month/year, I can do a retrospective.
1. After the Dell Tech came out on Tuesday and replaced the hard drive and keyboard and touchpad, my laptop feels like a brand-new computer. I now have the programs I use daily reinstalled and mostly set up properly. There’s still some tweaking to be done. The rest of the programs and the files will come over in bits and pieces. Instead of racing to dump it all on this machine, I’ll go slowly and try and set up a system. This feels right.
2. I’m not doing so well on cultivating my new habits of the observation journal and getting back to my morning pages – so far. I’m not giving up and I’m not beating myself up for what I haven’t done.
3. I did get back to work on SS, the YA verse novel inspired by my father poems of last year. I set the goal of 2 poems a day with the hope of a rough draft by the end of March. (That would be March of this year.)
4. While the house renovations are done I am still struggling to get my office and studio put back into order. I hope to spend time on it this weekend. I realized, once again, that I need to have a clean nest before I can burrow into it. And some things still need to find the right home. I tried putting all my notebooks behind closed doors because that was where there was space. (They’ve always been on a bookshelf before.) I hate them behind closed doors. It’s more effort to get to them and they can be too easily forgotten. So there is some rearranging in my future.
5. I am feeling less full of stress and wish I knew what I could attribute it too so that I could do more of it.
What you are doing is just allowing yourself to be. Just that, taking one day at a time. “Not beating yourself up” as you say. That is or was one of my worst habits and it is amazing how much better how much lighter you feel when you don’t allow yourself to do that.
I still have a lot going on probably more than ever but I just keep telling myself that there is not a lot that I can do about most of it. So all I can do is take one day at a time and go with the flow and see if things turn out alright at the other end. Seems to me that is what you are doing too.
You know what I think we just both might make it if we don’t let ourselves be consumed by complexity. Keep it simple, life has a way of getting too complicated and it shouldn’t be. xx
– Anne McKenna
Oh I totally agree with Anne, that is exactly what I was thinking as I read your blog…being you and accepting that you are comfortable being you…rambling…Janet