Trying to update a writer’s blog when one isn’t writing is a bit odd.
I am not even thinking about writing except for all the times I think about how I am not writing.
Today I am thinking about the oral surgery I am having tomorrow. And then the fact that 4-6 weeks after that I have to have two new crowns put on in the same place. And wondering if I can get all that done (if my mouth heals quickly) before the current insurance runs out at the end of November because we’ve already met the deductible for for the year. And then I am thinking about how I need to call a new dentist for the crowns because there is no way I am going back to the old one. With all this going on, one quadrant of my mouth will be in a constant state of turmoil from tomorrow til the first of the year and that stinks with the holidays coming. Sigh.
And then I am thinking about how yesterday I took 6 4" pots of Carex tumulicola, divided it into 57 individual plants, planted them in the front yard for the meadow and then realized they might not be the native Carex tumulicola but possibly the imposter. Plus rethinking the size they get and if I screwed up where I put them for a meadow in the front yard….a meadow with wildflowers in-between. More sighs.
And thinking about how I have 8 working days left in a cubicle and how even though I don’t want to be here anymore I know it is going to be a huge change. I so don’t do change well. Trying not to sigh.
I think I am just exhausted. I woke up at 1am and was awake until 4. Crashed hard until the alarm went off. Woke up thinking about plants that might need to be moved in the yard.
Happy Monday everyone.
You seriously need to plan SOMETHING for the day after the last day. That’s Halloween, yes–I’d have lunch with you, but the parents are visiting. Go get brunch at Gayle’s, then stare at the ocean, with a good book in hand?
Yeah, I was thinking I need to plan something but I actually have to work that Friday, or at least come in and get my check (which means I am off on Monday.)
I don’t drive to Santa Cruz alone.
I was thinking maybe I need a writing lunch/dinner/something that next week to celebrate?
Definitely a celebration SOMETHING the next week. But do something for yourself on Saturday, just something easy and quiet–you’re going to need the transition.
I wish.
Saturday will be all day in the yard.
Sunday will be all day in the yard.
Monday I will be back at the dentist at 1, oh joy.
I need to figure out transition but I think all my down time is going to be in the dental office. Grrr.
Good luck with the surgery and crowns. I just had some crowns done, and they’re not fun (and very expensive), so I sympathize. Hope the change in work situation will bring you renewed inspiration for your writing!
Thanks. Yes, crowns are sooo expensive, hence me wanting to get them on the old insurance.
I am trying to think positively that being home will soothe my writing spirit.
It’s too fall like for us around here, but i wish I could be thinking about flowers. Have fun and get some sleep too. 🙂
Hey, I was just catching up on your blog and wishing I was close enough to give you a hug. I have sooooo been down some of the same places, if you follow. After surgery and recovery, I need to send you a long email.
More hugs.
I’m doing really good this week. *G* I hope your surgery goes well and know that you’re in my thoughts and prayers!
{{hugs}}
thanks!
I just had a bunch of dental work done and am now wearing braces. They won’t be finished with me until this time next year! But it will be so worth it. I hope 🙂 Many good vibes for your surgery tomorrow, and for the crown work, too.
Thanks! Good for you on the braces!
I know about having a writing blog that has no writing on it… It does feel strange. I sort of felt like i was lying to everyone all last year calling myself a writer. But i was still a writer at heart, just storing up the energy to produce again. Sort of like allowing seeds to sit in the dark.
Yes, I hate that lying sort of feeling. I know….seeds in the dark and it’s important but man, it’s tough, isn’t it? sigh.
I am not even thinking about writing except for all the times I think about how I am not writing.
This is me. Today, I took my laptop to do laundry with me, and poked at a story, and I feel like I’m rushing to get it done. And that isn’t something I want, but I know I have to get the story down because all the rest is just… revisions.
But I’m in Not Good Headspace, and that means writing is kinda curtailed until the brain meats get straightened a bit.
I hear you with the Not Good Headspace. I hope it gets better for both of us.
Ohh. I feel for the dental work you’re facing. Sending hugs. And I understand about change. It will all turn out and some day you can look back and be glad it’s over. Good luck with your writing too. Some day…
Thanks for the hugs. It will all circle around but sometimes it’s hard.