Random things going through my brain on a Thursday:
1. The courtyard fence needs to be replaced. Which means the electrical stuff that is on the fence and that runs the length of the fence needs to be taken down/shutoff/moved/etc. Which means in addition to finding a fence person (hard to do for a small area) I need to find an electrician (hard to do lately for small jobs.)
2. Need to make up my mind about where to direct the water that will come when (if?) it rains since I had trenches dug and downspouts rerouted.
3. Where and how high will I put mounds in the front yard?
4. Need to do #2 before I can start #3
5. Should I even be trying to write in the middle of this?
6. Milestone birthday coming up – people keep asking me if I am worried/concerned/depressed/etc. I’m not. Does that make me weird?
7. I am thinking about going to work on a verse novel instead of one in prose and I wonder why I am afraid to write in verse again. This is different than blank page fear.
Yes, you should try to keep writing, but you should also be gentle and kind with yourself. There will be days it doesn’t work and days it does. Just be ready for the good ones and let yourself keep your story present in your mind, meanwhile.
Verse or prose? I don’t know, Susan–Hugging the Rock is such an amazing novel; it’s probably my bias, but I was stunned to find such a tight plot in a verse story. So I know you can do it again, beautifully. The glimpses you’ve given us of your prose, though, also…so lovely.
I guess, as usual, go with what’s really calling to you. π
Thanks, Becky. Nothing is calling to me. I think I am just plain exhausted inside and out.
No words. None at all.
Write in whatever form feels most comfortable. You can always change your mind later.
The only birthday that bothered me was 30.
M was depressed by his last significant birthday. We took him for an exotic vacation and it did a lot to get rid of the blues. Okay, I did get to attend the Maui Writers’ Conference while we were there. But we *mostly* went to cheer him up. π
LOL on the writing conference to “cheer him up.”
Write now nothing feels comfortable which, I suppose, is part of the problem.
I vote for writing as you work on these other projects. BUT give yourself permission to write whatever comes to you so you don’t feel more pressure. It sounds as if you don’t need more pressure. π
And I don’t think you’re weird not to be stressed about upcoming birthday. You’re well-adjusted, is all.
I’m good at adding that extra pressure on myself. π
well-adjusted? Hahahahahaha.
That is SO not me.